Before Michelin Star – Divorce

Divorce.
I was 14 at the time when I began to understand that my parents are stopping to get along. That was the first time I felt this feeling growing in me, a feeling I will never forget. My exultation that accompanied it was just like love. I understood that it is time to create your first scenario. When my parents argued for hours, I spent this time on the computer, pretending I was playing computer games, stealthily, I created my life work, but then I did not think, it just made me happy.

Everything began to take a different turn when the time came for the separation of my parents, I blamed myself for a very long time, so I decided to buy back my guilt by creating my vision for the future for myself and my family. The pressure that was born at my time is not comparable to anything I have ever gone through in my life. I was depressed, which had been destroying me from the inside for years. I felt that I had to hurry because I would not even finish one scenario. It turned out that there were ten or more of them later? It was so long ago that I could be wrong, I know that I had them somewhere on my computer, but one day I got stuck and I lost everything. With time, I began to remind myself that told my uncle about it, it was the first time I actually told someone about it. Then began, thunders, storms, family revolution and as always vodka and good food.
However, you still ask yourself why ten sceners immediately, it was more important because one morning I came up with a genius idea to create something that has never been done before, a story that will be going through different scenarios and interwoven with each other. Where does this crazy idea come from? Even then, I thought that I would want to film them.
I am probably wondering why 10 were created? I do not know myself, I wrote and wrote and everything began to gain more and more importance. For me, it was the greatest effort and life pleasure beyond measure. I got into it innocently, I created my first document in Word. In the beginning, I was thinking about the title, later on, the rest and it really worked! What a joyful and happy moment I was then,, sadness after losing my father became my strength, bastion, life motto, already then I found a perfectly matching “Life is an uninterrupted series of surprises” by Andrzej Sapkowski. From the age of 14, I grew up without a father, it’s a heavy feeling when you have such a big family and the fact that you will have to take care of them because I promised this promise to my father. One evening he came to me and for the first time I showed him what I spend so much time on, already then I had it almost finished. For the first time I saw the surprise and admiration in my father, he never showed me anything like that, he always he rejects me, he kept saying that I had to be stronger, if I did not do it, I would be like a calf eaten by the lion or something worse.

Father.

He was always an example for me to follow, he could do everything related to work on the construction site, he was strong, he was two years in the Czech army (I was two years old then), this separation was very difficult for my mother. Then apparently all these complications in marriage began. However, what I should say about my father is the fact that I really loved him and I still love him, despite the fact that I rarely see him now. When we had a lot of free time at school, and even if there was nothing impossible for our father, he took us, the whole family, for trips and bonfires. Mom’s still holding pictures of these wonderful days, I knew then that my father is only one. He always gave me wise advice when no one listened, he told me that I was very wise, but for me then these were just words as father repeats for the Childers. It turned out that over time I started to hear it also from other people, it was already known that the father should be listened to because he is always right.

To be continued…

Author:

Kamil Prochazka